Job interviews can be scary. Very scary in fact. Having dyspraxia makes it 10 times more difficult for me than an “average” human being in an interview situation whether it’s on the phone or face to face.
It’s quite difficult for me to think what I am going to do, even though I have different interests, I don’t really think some of them translate into a job. Then there’s rejection from jobs.
I mean, I’ve been turned down after an interview but it didn’t really bother me too much for the simple reason that I still feel too under developed to be ready to get a paid job as again that’s a level up and expectations rise.
Where dyspraxia affects this for me is how I’d go about actually pursuing the thibgs I want to do and not being shoe horned into doing something I don’t want to do… Which has already been the case in a couple of situations.
Of course, there must be some sort of job that would be suitable for me and hopefully that would be a job which isn’t sedentary and means sitting down all day… I’d hate that with a passion.
Having the drive to do something is also a challenge but once I find something and get along with it I feel I can stick to it in most circumstances.
I have seen various people with disabilities on a programme called Employable Me recently and it got me thinking that I wish I could see an occupational psychologist and have that help to find the perfect or let’s say mostly ideal job for me.
I do want to work but I don’t want to do any job just for the paycheck and would rather do something that’s going to drive me and make me motivated to go there each day while I’m happy to work from 10-5 or 6 and no later and hopefully a job like I know a few people are lucky to be able to have where I wouldn’t work at weekends.
I want to be able to live a happy life where work and social life is balanced fairly and I feel that having weekend work or working until late would leave me feeling in an anxious place.
I think interview support is a must for me but again whether I’d get that is another question of the many that there are when it comes to dyspraxia for me.
There is just too much going on for me right now with looking at different jobs and sending off applications left, right and centre.
All I can say is that I hope to be able to be in a part time job soon which is fulfilling and comfortable for me otherwise things will just get even more difficult.